Ms. Matchsticks and Denial At Its Best

Ms. Matchstick loved the sounds he made the second he was done. In fact that was one of the most manly and yet vulnerable moments she could ever find in him. It was familiar and it felt like home and that is all that mattered to Ms.Matchstick in the end of the day. 

But, one of the worst feelings is her having to hide her heart and head because she could she it in him. He was a boy who thinks he can, not a man. Things would scare him easily. 
He did have an old school charm to him though. While reading The Broken, Ms.Matchstick remembered everything that was misunderstood by him. How he shooed away her thoughts, her pleas. Sometimes, you can't just go right up and say; ' Hey! I am a little bit crazy '. 
But, Ms.Matchstick tried t make up for all her issues. She made a good home for him. Made sure he had everything he needed at his reach. At least she made for the piece of self loathing shit that she was. In either case, at least Ms.matchstick's did not shy away from her monsters. She befriended them. 
If only he was mature enough to grasp that. Abby's journey in The Broken reminded her of how she struggled every day to not let the cats in her head take over. And, as every day Ms.Matchstick survived, only she knew how hard it was. 
She quietly went and made her a glass of gin and tonic and sat beside the open window wondering, was his love worth turning away from herself? Was he worth all the pain he had caused? Was he really worth the ignorance he came with? 
Could she really tell him how she feels?

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